*Sighing*

    I am so not sure where to even begin. I am in the middle of life... Taking care of my parents, my handicapped daughter and my grandson. I am only 40. I don't know what I am doing most of the time although I don't think I give myself half the credit I deserve.
   Dad went to the Nursing Home about two months ago. Was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. But he is safter there as my Mom is not know for her patience and is sick as well.
  Right now.. my daughter has a compression fracture in her spine and is in terrible pain. The doctors don't offer much help... but I believe that is because they see her as a lesser person. She is 17 in years but about 1 1/2-2 yrs old in ability. That is all she will ever be. But she is my girl and a wonderful child for all her issues and I think she is WORTH having every chance she can get.
   Out of my four children only one is going to graduate high school. Well, Jessi will as well... but that is a generic diploma. I feel that Megan has a lot of pressure on her to be the "good" kid. Which she is. But it's not fair that she has to live in the shadow of her siblings mistakes.
    If you cannot tell.. I have been depressed lately and trying to work things out in my already jumbled head. Decided I better get it down on paper ( or blog it) to help me get through it all.
    Well, that is about all for now. I have to much to do to write much more. I will be back around though to fill in all the blanks.
~be kind to yourself... if you can't who will?~